Sunday, November 7, 2010

Sweet Mommy ~ My Friend.

At best this last month has been challenging for myself and my family.  My sweet mom passed away after a ten day illness.   Her void is numbing to me and I'm thankful that with the grace of God my pain will ease as the days drift on. 

What I find difficult now though....is not being able to grieve with her as I always had when a loved one passed.  It was therapeutic for both of us.  Now I grieve without her.

I have observed her throughout my life and she had taught me well.  She was strong for my dad when he was ill and even stronger in rebuilding her life without him.  She was simple with her possessions but extravagant with her personal relationships which included her love for Our Lord, the Virgin Mary, her husband,  children, grandchildren, extended family and friends.  She went to church, studied the bible, belonged to a prayer group, volunteered, belonged to her seniors group and still lunched with her same bunch of friends that she knew as a child.  When my youngest daughter was 2 years old and choking on a piece of candy....while I was frazzeled...she calmly, quickly and meticulously picked her up, held her upside down by her feet and hit her on the back.  The candy came spewing out.  She saved my daughter's life.  I would say her life was full in every way.

I think my sister put it so lovely.  "Mom was our first love and it's hard to say goodbye".

As we sat with her as she was fading away like the morning dew from this life into the next....I couldn't help but think.  "Be not afraid.  You shall see the face of God and live".  Her spirit will live in my heart forever.   I love you mommy.  ~amy












10 comments:

Judy said...

I am sooo sorry.

I'm still mourning my mom who passed away almost six months ago.

Precious memories, how they linger.

Kat said...

I'm so sorry for your loss Amy. I can tell from your words what an amazing woman she was. May your precious memories give you happiness and peace. Prayers to you and your family at this difficult time. Hugs, Kat

Diane said...

Oh I am crying reading your Post, I am deeply sorry for your loss, this past couple of months I too have been dealing with ailing parents, and it just makes me think back just how we take our loved for granite. The last time my Mom and stepdad drove out to our home, I really never thought it would be the last. I still hold onto hope that my stepdad will be healed. Our parents are a treasure we just never want to lose. oxoxox, Diane

Jane said...

Amy,
You wrote a beautiful post about your mother. The pictures and your words showed us what a beautiful woman she was.
I am sorry for your loss. You and your family will be in my prayers.
Jane

Jackie said...

Amy, what a beautiful post about your Mom. I'm sorry for your loss. You will be in thoughts and prayers.

Jackie

Michelle @ between cottage and cabin said...

Amy,
I am so sorry for your loss. A mother's love is like no other. I pray that time will ease your pain. I am sure she is in heaven now looking down on you and all of your family. ~Michelle

Carrie @ Cottage Cozy said...

My heart aches for your loss, Amy. I enjoyed so much getting a glimpse of her through your words!

Many Blessings & Much love,
Carrie

Wsprsweetly Of Cottages said...

I am so sorry to hear about your dear mother. My mother has been gone for a few years now...but I will always miss her. So many of the bloggers have written of the loss of their mothers..and it always saddens me.

No, I have not watched the movie Rudy yet..but I took it out and put it on my nightstand to watch tonight..but now I am too tired. Perhaps tomorrow evening. I am anxious to see it. Several people including you, have told me it is a very good film.
I will let you know what I think of it when I do.
Many hugs to you.
Mona

Zuzu said...

I am so sorry, Amy. She is safe in His loving arms, and her love for you and everyone she touched is her gift - her love will always be with you.
Gentle hugs,
Zuzu

Sweet Cottage Dreams said...

Amy, I am getting around to several of my blog friends to catch up. I am sitting here in tears reading about your beloved mother. I love what your sister said as our mothers are our first love. You know that your beautiful, beautiful mother is now with our Father. Her spirit will always be with you till you can be together again in Heaven.

Though we are sad about our family being gone, the faith of a forever life in Heaven sustains us.

God Bless You.....
love,
Becky